It's not fear!

I ventured out into the big business world of Real Estate investing on Jan 1 of this year. I got an email last week from Dean saying ‘congratulations, you have been in the program for 10 weeks, and how do you feel about your progress?’ I am learning a great deal and making decent progress but nothing so amazing as the Carol Stinson’s and the Andrea Weuhle’s
I know that one day this will be my full time endeavor replacing my current JOB.
But today is Sunday and I’m logged into IE watching Joe Polish and Dean. It’s like Dean has become a friend, I watch him so much and read his material. He writes like he talks so it’s very familiar and friendly. But why am I logged in and ‘working’ on a Sunday? Because I want to work on my new endeavor everyday and give myself every chance of success – chance – what a weak word!!!!!!!!!!!!
So here I am on Sunday logged into the IE, what I should be doing (don’t you hate when you ‘should’ on yourself) is putting out some bandit signs or calling buyers. I spent all day yesterday scouring MLS listings for my 25:1 plan.
I am more committed to making this RE venture a success than any other venture I have ever undertaken. In the past I have made a lot of money in my ventures but never reached the pinnacle of success I know I can. I have gone from one endeavor, opportunity or job to the next, always blaming the opportunity for not holding the ‘potential for wealth’ that I am capable of making. I never was able to reach my potential because in some way the opportunity was lacking so I would move on to the next one. But as Joe said – “potential is just what you are capable of doing but haven’t” WOW he just took away that excuse!
So here I am with this RE oppty staring me in the face. It is the ‘perfect’ business for me for all the reasons you already know. In the past, it was the oppty that was deficient, now I have the perfect oppty and as Joe so eloquently said the fact that I am the problem is like a blinking neon sign that won’t stop. If it is so perfect – why will I not pull the trigger.
I am not in a position to quit my job just yet. I get home in the evening and I’m too tired to sift thru listings, it’s too late to make calls to buyers or sellers. It is the perfect time to put out bandit signs b/c no one will see me, I don’t want venture out into the dark alone. So I have excused myself from doing what my coach is so patiently encouraging me and waiting for me to accomplish.
Unlike the responses from Dean’s survey’s my inability to pull the trigger and get the momentum going has nothing to do with fear. You see I know that this stuff works. No one else is doing anything I can’t and even in a bigger way. My hesitation is that it does work. Ever gone rabbit hunting and caught a bear?
I go to work every day and work hard. I like my job and the company is ok but it is what I know. When this RE oppty takes off and it will, I will be forced to quit my job b/c I really cannot do both, I don’t have the energy. That is the surface reason. Deep down the question is not can I do it – of course I can. The real question is “Why do I think I don’t deserve the success and the wealth? Once it gets up and running will I repeat history and sabotage it. If so why bother in the first place.
There probably are people out there who fear talking on the phone, or making an offer. My fear isn’t making the offer, it’s what if they say yes – and they will. But when they do, am I emotionally intelligent and mature enough to handle the success?
I have absorbed as much of the education Dean offers as I can, but at some point it’s not about learning more. It’s about forgetting all ‘the stuff I know that just ain’t so’. I have to let go of all the bull**** head trash that has polluted my desire for success for 50 + years.
Dean talks about the villain within. At this moment that villain is hiding so deep and controlling me on such an unconscious level that I cannot even venture a guess what traumatized me in the past to make me feel I don’t deserve the success. I think about my metamorphosis from the little worm changing into the butterfly, but at this moment the villain is the worm looking up at the butterfly saying – “you’ll never get me up in one of those”!