still no success

I have lost track of how long I have been here trying to get that first deal done, done this done that, tried this, tried that. Have all of Dean's book and some other things. I have proved one thing this does not work, all you see now advertise is insider elite, the new name for dean's academy no doubt. To me it was all wasted time and money. When life really s.... and you fail in every thing you have tried I know what I should do, take the easy way out of things and just leave this world to who ever that wants to deal with it. Life has no meaning and I have gotten to where I do not care about any thing. Thanks for all the help I got that did not help, just wasted others time along with mine too.

Shawn